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Quack quack,

I am driven to madness,
Cause you fill with sadness,
This is not a love letter,
but rather a poem I wrote in anger

"Destiny"
a poem by
Jake Castillo
for the Racquel I knew

Your heart is like Chicago
In the middle of a bad winter
Bitterly cold, battered by the wind
Harsh and unforgiving littered
with shards of frozen tears

Your mood is like it's weather
Unpredictable, extreme, abrupt
and always spells danger
warm as a summer morning
cold as a winter evening

You always catch me unprepared
with that howling wind
with the cold seeping through me
relentless you freeze me

I'd rather not see you
I'd rather not be your friend
You don't act it anyway
So why should I care
when you never play fair

How much pain can it endure
this heart that's true and pure
I am still your beau
Forever your rainbow

I die slowly each night
hoping to one day see the light
so I struggle to keep this fight
regardless how much I hurt each night

I scream in silence
I cry without a tear
I sit in damnation
Hoping for salvation

All I hear is silence
All I see is darkness
All I feel is numbness
All I have is hopelessness

I feel so small
so weak
so ill

afraid of losing my sobriety
driven to the brink of insanity
afraid this will end in profanity
loving you is my only liberty
bound to you for eternity
forever your my baby

they all tell me your not worth it
after all, you did f*** a midget
what the fuck was you thinking
for days I was screaming
for months I was sobbing
for years I was crying
till I stopped hurting
and finally started forgetting

I was an ocean away
but there was no way
to take you away
to spend one more day
and win you back some way

Ten years I made my way
dreaming finally of one day
when we can both play
naughty thoughts every which way

Fate tore us apart
Fate will bring us back
There is no stopping
a heart that is aching
a soul that is longing
a man who will keep trying
even though he is dying

You love me there is no denying
All this time you are wasting
testing, mocking and teasing
when we could be hugging and kissing
petting, moaning and screaming
in the evening until the morning

Save me from all this madness
I beg you to show me some tenderness
Isn't that what you do as nearces
Smile and blow me soft gentle kisses

Hold me tight
even for a night
keep my heart warm
I mean you no harm

Let me taste your sweet persimmon
and I'll listen to your sermon
along with your daughter in person
with each and every passing season

Let me gaze into your eyes
For there my true love lies
Oh how time flies
I must bid my goodbyes

Stop worrying about tomorrow
I promise to share your joy and sorrow
I just wanna bite your ear
ever so softly and playfully my dear

You know I don't like to drink beer
that doesn't mean that I'm queer
I would like to taste your coffee
every day with your Sofi

It would be a delight
To have dinner by candle light
In my place with you one night
As I hold you in my arms so tight

I don't want to fight
I want to make things right
The future looks bright
As long as you're within sight

So cast all your worries
As I take off your panties
Oh how you make me horny
Only you can drive me this crazy

I want to make you happy
You're my lady, my only baby
So don't run away from me
Cause I'm tired of being lonely

This poem should be a felony
Cause your someone else's, honey
But your no sugar mommy
Which is why I find him eerie

Is he really four feet three,
Does he fit under the Christmas tree,
I hope he gets run over by a lorry,
that would be quite a story,
and I won't ever feel sorry,

Is it true he's a junkie,
If so I too would be leery,
Cause If he were to die early
That would fulfill your prophecy

I don't want to think of murder,
I'd rather take care of your bladder,
I've shipped you a diaper,
along with an air freshener
It wasn't cheap either.

I sure wish I met your father,
but glad I knew your mother,
How are your brother and your sister,
Ate Mowee If I remember

Is it too much to answer me back,
I thought it's part of being tact,
just like not calling someone fat,
even though it was a fact

Love me or hate me,
things will come to be,
for I believe it's destiny,
that one day you will marry m